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But how do you follow that?
Not to mention you have to now actually start treatment on the cancer you talked about in the set.
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I remember feeling very much like I didnt know who I was.
I started to think,Oh, is that what I am?
Maybe I am someone who shares personal stuff and dark stuff.
I was scared to get onstage for a long time because there was so much pressure.
Itd be an honor to have you onstage.
And I was like, Oh, no, no, no, thank you.
I truly felt I was anonymous.
I thought I was just a regular comedian going in with a friend of mine.
And that was the first realization that thats who some people saw me as.
I was like, I dont have anything to say.
Im just going to sit here and watch my friend perform.
But I was like,That feels terrible.
And then I went on the road.
I went to Iowa City, and I was standing backstage.
It was a sold-out theater.
Then something just came over me in that moment before I walked out onstage.
So I really just let go of that moment right before I walked onstage in Iowa City.
And man, was that the best choice, because they were such a phenomenal audience.
To this day, a city I love going back to.
I dont hit every city and do two shows, but thats who Iowa City is.
And for a while, I internalized that.
I thoughtYeah, it was kind of a bummer.Then it dawned on me that it wasstand-upthat got me attention.
I was like,Wait a minute.
It still feels very personal whenever I run into someone who was there.
Its a crazy thing.
It was a different kind of show and delivery and experience.
I was asking permission.
I didnt know I needed support.
I certainly had friends and family, but my mother and my primary relationship were gone.
I still really struggle listening to it.
And its not because, you know, emotional reasons that I cant relive that time.
Its like I relive that time over and over in my head from one dark moment to the next.
Her Reaction to #HotTig
I certainly did not see that coming.
[Notaros wife] Stephanie was more like, Well, yeah.
What took them so long?
To be fair, I know its because also I was green-screened into the movie and whatever.
To look like me, to be my age, to have my delivery thats not mainstream.
That was the No.
And no, I didnt expect that.
I wasnt like,Yeah, that makes sense.
I was just like,Wow, thats really fascinating.
And people should look into that, because Hollywood has said No!
I was told, Ive seen comedians like you.
Its like Margaret Smith; youre going to end up a writer.
Thats verbatim what a manager told me.
And I remember thinking,Oh, he knows what hes talking about.
I have ideas and I have stories, but I need people to help me write scripts.
Its not my world.
On Her Animated Stand-up Special
Ive had jokes and stories of mine animated.
Greg Franklin, who directedDrawn, and I had talked probably 12 years ago.
We went back and forth for a while, trying to work on that project together.
Oddly, this was sold before the pandemic.
Everybodys been like, Oh, thats such a great idea.
Itisperfect timing, but it didnt have to do with the pandemic.
This material was going to be potentially an album.
I havent performed during the pandemic.
I didnt do any of the Zoom stand-up shows or the drive-through movie theaters where people are honking.
I didnt do it; I wanted to wait.
But yeah, Im very excited.
