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Now, shes a rapid-fire punch-line-delivery machine, and the punch-lines are decidedly less church-friendly.
Her new special,Quarter-Life Crisis,was released on Netflix this March.
And that was enough to get me fired from a string of church dates.
And I just remember thinking,I dont ever want to feel this way again.
It was just some internal stuff, probably, from growing up so religious.
I still feel that dormant guilt and shame, a little bit.
And then I get upset that I still feel that way.
So that was a huge turning point for me.
I know its good money.
But just dont send them to me.
I dont care how much it is.
I cant do it.
Im not what they want.
Because if you do churches, youve got to be that all the time.
You have to be squeaky-clean in clubs if youre gonna do both.
Im like, Im promoting the thingyou like!
But they wouldnt want you to even refer to anything like that.
But as a single female who was 19, nobodys gonna be onboard with that.
Theyre gonna go, Youre leading people astray.
I told a joke once where I said …
I think I said, stripper in it.
It wasnt a dirty joke.
All those perspectives Ive heard.
And as someone in their 20s, I felt like,No, no, no.
I know that I suck and I know whats coming.
And I know that Im not a fully formed human yet.
And so everything you guys are saying, I agree with.
And I still have to be here.
I didnt know what was happening.
Imagine knowing all of that, but youre in it.
I think a lot of people in their 20s right now are trying to do everything.
On Being Young But Not Fun
It wasnt even only that I wasnt fun.
I didnt even have any interest in partying.
I was too scared to drink or do drugs or anything.
I mean, my mom died when she was pretty young.Not from drugs or anything.
But I think when that happens, you kind of go,All right.
When people look back and they go,Oh, man, I took so many risks.
I was so, so dumb.
Is today the day?
I thoughtGirlswas amazing.Did I relate to a lot of it?
Those were not my experiences.
Ive never bathed with a friend of mine.
Ive never danced with my roommates like that.
Ive never gone to a rave in Brooklyn like that.
This is just not what I have.
And I dont feel this pure pressure to experience certain things.
Im just trying to keep it together.
So theres a pattern.
The reason I didnt party and the reason I work hard are the same thing.
Its, I dont have that much time.
I dont have time to be irresponsible like you guys do, because I dont have till Im 70.
I think its that idea of leaving work behind.
Thats a sort of immortality as well.
Like, Imnevergoing to die if I write something this good!
And maybe on some level, that tricks our brains into thinking well still be here.
