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I thought when I was in the group that it was just normal to feel that way.
And because Id felt like that for ten years, I just thought, This is life.
Since Ive left, I feel free.
Or, I need to go on an extreme diet so I can look like the other three.
That was consuming me.
Now I feel like me, she continues.
When I look back [at my time] in the band, I genuinely wasnt me.
I cant believe how miserable I was.
After going on an extreme diet, she still found it so hard to be a carefree pop star.
I was like, I just want to go home.
I was sobbing in the dressing room.
Someone really close to me said, This has got to stop.
You cant keep doing this to yourself.
Thats what clears my head and makes me happy.
