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Diana says her first meeting with Charles was underwhelmingThe first impact was God, what a sad man.
He came with his labrador, she recalled of their introduction, which occurred when she was a teenager.
My sister was all over him like a bad rash.
The anticipation was worse than actually being there, she wrote.
Youre alright once you get in through the front door.
Thats before all the other stuff.
I always have four or five.
I felt rather embarrassed.
I remember thinking: This is a joke, and I said: Yeah, OK, and laughed.
He was deadly serious.
He said: You do realize that one day you will be Queen.
And a voice said to me inside: You wont be Queen but youll have a tough role.
So I thought: OK, so I said: Yes.
I said: I love you so much, I love you so much.
He said: Whatever love means.
He said it then.
So I thought that was great!
I thought he meant that!
And so he ran upstairs and rang his mother.
Diana discovered it during a routine visit to Charless office, just days before their wedding.
I was devastated, Diana said, who got no sympathy from her future family members.
The lies and the deceit.
Out come two pictures of Camilla.
I ate everything I could possibly find, she said of the evening.
I was sick as a parrot that night.
It was such an indication of what was going on …
I felt I was a lamb to the slaughter.
I knew it and couldnt do anything about it.
Diana found this constant hostess duty very difficult to adapt to, which triggered her disease.
By then the bulimia was appalling, absolutely appalling.
It was rife, four times a day on the yacht, Diana said.
Anything I could find I would gobble up and be sick two minutes later, very tired.
I remember crying my eyes out on our honeymoon.
I was so tired, for all the wrong reasons totally.
I got terribly, terribly thin.
People started commenting: your bones are showing, Diana recalled.
I was so depressed, and I was trying to cut my wrists with razor blades.
While various medications and high doses of Valium were prescribed to her, Diana turned them all down.
Patience and adapting were all that were needed.
It was me telling them what I needed, she said.
They were telling me pills!
That was going to keep them happy.
Very, very becoming handicapped as a result.
So sick, sick, sick, sick, sick.
I was a problem and they registered Diana as a problem.
Shes different, shes doing everything that we never did.
Poor Charles is having such a hard time, Diana recalled.
Youre always doing this to me.
Im going riding now.
So I threw myself down the stairs, Diana said.
The Queen comes out, absolutely horrified, shaking she was so frightened.
I knew I wasnt going to lose the baby; quite bruised around the stomach.
When Charles returned from riding, he dismissed the severity of the fall.
He just carried on out, she added, of the door.
I long to get inside her mind and talk to her and I will.
She took it quite well, Diana recalled.
She told me that.
I was just so desperate, Diana recalled, not specifying the date when this occurred.
I knew what was wrong with me but nobody else around me understood me.
It was a desperate cry for help.
Im not spoiled I just needed to be allowed to adapt to my new position.
It was all very strange, I just felt miserable.
and that triggered off something in me, she explained.
And the Camilla thing, I was desperate, desperate.
I remember the first time I made myself sick.
I was so thrilled because I thought this was the release of tension.
The first time Diana was measured for her wedding dress, she was 29 inches around the waist.
The day she got married she was 23 and 1/2 inches.
I had shrunk into nothing from February to July.
I had shrunk to nothing, Diana added.
Even if I ate a lot of dinner Charles would say: Is that going to reappear later?
And she said: Oh, its not a cloak-and-dagger situation.
I said: I think it is.
I wasnt as strong as Id have liked, but at least I got the conversation going.
She said to me: Youve got everything you ever wanted.
What more could you want?
I didnt believe her, so I said: I want my husband.
Someone came down to relieve us, obviously.
For Gods sake, go down there, theyre having a fight.
It wasnt a fight calm, deathly calm.
Dont treat me like an idiot.
So I went upstairs and people began to disperse.
It was seven years worth of anger coming out, Diana added.
The next morning when I woke up I felt a tremendous shift.
